"I Affirm This Single Moment of Rebellion."

April 4, 2012 at 1:50 P.M. Several computers and a printer have been targeted for sabotage at my local NYPL branch. I will be moving to multiple locations and will continue to use public computers to write my essays for as long as possible. This is one tortured dissident writer's experience of censorship in the USA. ("What is it like to be tortured?")

August 2, 2010 at 11:22 A.M. "Errors" inserted since my previous review of this essay. I will make the necessary corrections. Computer warfare continues. I expect obstructions of all efforts to continue writing on-line.

July 28, 2010 at 10:05 P.M. A new attack against my security system prevents me from updating or renewing my protection. I will try to move to public computers tomorrow. Cyberwarfare may result in the destruction of my home computer which will require me to write from different locations throughout Manhattan. Shame on you, Mr. Menendez. ("Havana Nights and C.I.A. Tapes" and "Fidel Castro's 'History Will Absolve Me.'")

July 28, 2010 at 7:50 P.M. Numerous "errors" inserted in writings and intrusions into my computer from New Jersey government offices. I will continue to struggle. Keep 'em coming, Stuart. In the words of Senator Menendez: "Why would you stonewall when in fact you have nothing to hide?" The Record, July 28, 2010, at p. A-1. ("Menendez Delays Lockerbridge Hearing.")

July 28, 2010 at 11:10 A.M. A new attack on my computer has caused me to run a full scan of my system as I attempt to determine what damage has been done to my writings overnight. Due to the computer warfare, I will attempt to write from public computers. Chief Justice Stuart Rabner, Governor Chris Christie, Attorney General Paula Dow -- Why would you stall our confrontation if you have nothing to hide? ("Does Senator Menendez Have Mafia Friends?")

July 27, 2010 at 8:25 P.M. "Errors" inserted since this afternoon and corrected.

"I affirm this single moment of rebellion." -- Friedrich Nietzsche.

The culture of corruption in New Jersey has reached such a level of public criminality that censorship and computer crime, also much worse offenses -- even when brought to the attention of the authorities who are witnesses to evil -- produces very little action by law enforcement officials.

American complaints about police brutality in Egypt or lack of civil rights in China, Cuba, and elsewhere seem absurd to witnesses of this display of censorship and much worse used against me by the state of New Jersey's Cuban-American politicians and their mafia friends. ("What is it like to be tortured?" then "What is it like to be censored in America?")

N.J. has always been associated with organized crime and corrupt judges in tainted legal proceedings. Criminality has reached a level today when it is no longer certain whether legal institutions as opposed to bosses from behind the scenes govern the "Soprano State." ("New Jersey's Mafia Culture in Law and Politics" and see Denzel Washington's performance in "Hurricane.")

N.J. humiliates and sickens America. However, what is worse -- more frightening and ominous for international observers of these events -- is the paralysis or incompetence of the federal government in coping with the problem.

We look and are inept in efforts to control the mafia and endemic racism in New Jersey. How will we do against the Taliban or Al Qaeda? Mr. Holder, the whole world is watching. ("America's Holocaust.")

This is not a situation that calls for a "minimalist" approach or "moving on." One suggestion that has been made seriously is that we just "forget about it." The mob is merely a way of life, a minor inconvenience -- like cancer -- so don't give them a second thought. Go on about your business. Let them do what they do; you do what you do. The trouble with this approach is that it is indeed similar to ignoring cancer. Things will get worse. Perhaps this is the reasoning that governs our policy in Afghanistan and Iraq.

And things are getting worse on those battlefields as well. July has brought the largest number of American casualties since the conflict began in Afghanistan. Furthermore, things are still getting worse on both battlefields as well as Pakistan as the holidays draw near. The rebellion in northern India is not an encouraging sign. Korea is heating up as we prepare for naval saber rattling. China is seeking a more rational solution than another war.

The foregoing paragraph was just altered after a wave of computer attacks. I am almost clinically fascinated by someone capable of such sadistic evil on a daily basis who disapproves of me. The levels of cruelty and obsession involved in this experience of evil directed at one's creative works in order to cause suffering, even when it is evident that abuse of power explains these alterations, suggests an almost inhuman abandonment of affect and seething, devouring envy of what I write. Weird.

In a strange and sick way, this person inserting "errors" in my writings is begging for my attention. ("More Censorship and Cybercrime.")

More vandalism and censorship of these writings must be expected. My opportunity to write on-line is a daily war accompanied by the cackle of hideous laughter no doubt. At any time, I may be prevented from getting on-line from home. I will then resort to public computers. If the public computers or printers at any one location are damaged, I will move to multiple public computers at diverse locations. ("Censorship and Cruelty in New Jersey" and "What is it like to be censored in America?")

"Hell is not only atrocious agony. It is torment laced with manic laughter. It is the sneering cackle of those who believe that they have seen through everything, yet who perversely rejoice in the gimrack, kitschy nature of it all, like intellectuals who feel a horrible fascination for Big Brother. Knowing that value is phony is a source of anguish. Yet it also confirms your own spiritual superiority. [If you refuse to believe in such nonsense as "ethics."] So your torment is also your delight."

This is the territory where we find, "Malbus," a demon consigned to the lowest levels of hell in mythology:

"Hell is the kingdom of the mad, absurd, monstrous, traumatic, surreal, disgusting and excremental which Jacques Lacan, after the ancient god of havoc, calls Ate. It is a landscape of desolation and despair. But it is a despair that its inhabitants would not wish for a moment to be snatched from them. For it is not only what gives them an edge over credulous idealists of every stripe; it is also the misery that assures them that they still exist. [Alex Booth?] Even this, did they but know it, is a lie, for theologically speaking, as we have seen, there can be no life outside God. Like Pincher Martin, [in William Golding's novel,] the evil, who believe that they have seen through it all, are thus ensnared in illusion to the end."

Terry Eagleton, On Evil (New Haven: Yale University Press, 2010), at pp. 76-78.

New Jersey officials should meet with me and turn over the torture files as quickly as possible. Before becoming governor, Mr. Christie spoke of the "brazen disregard for all human decency and law" on the part of mafia-associated politicians. Mr. Florio and Mr. McGreevey as well as Bob Menendez may fall into that category.

Mr. Christie also spoke of a "culture of corruption" and unashamed "disregard for legality" in the Garden State. Perhaps Mr. Schundler was doing favors for the opposition. Alex Booth was a "friend" of Mr. Schundler's mayoralty in Jersey City.

The Christie administration is now looking at a $10.5 BILLION deficit. New Jersey's once crusading U.S. Attorney is primarily concerned to turn the Xanadu mall into a money-making proposition in order to build a war chest from grateful Republican developers for a possible U.S. Senate run, after Menendez, finally, gets indicted. Incidentally, Menendez should be indicted. ("Does Senator Menendez Have Mafia Friends?")

As far as I can tell, no one denies that crimes have been and are committed against me -- crimes like rape, theft, assault, tampering with witnesses and other forms of obstruction of justice, also much worse, for example, witnesses may have been bribed or threatened to speak against me, secretly -- besides the daily censorship and cybercrime on display at these blogs. The sum total of these efforts is a finding that I am not a "nice person" or "unethical" as compared with Stuart Rabner and/or Mr. Rabner's "alleged" friend Angelo ("The Horn") Prisco, perhaps.

I am not overly distressed at this determination by New Jersey's radioactive judges. I disagree with the conclusion. ("Stuart Rabner and Conduct Unbecoming to the Judiciary in New Jersey" and "Law and Ethics in the Soprano State.")

The basis for this conclusion is "behavior" generated by hypnotists or "therapists," like Tuchin and Riccioli -- whose reports and the evidence for them (if any) have never been made known to me -- or good-old paid-for lies. No confrontation or cross examination of the vulgar drivel of these "psychomorons" has been afforded to me. There are probably other such "therapists" gathering information, secretly, for government agencies every day at the expense of their victims' civil rights. I can only imagine what has been done to many American inmates. ("Justice for Mumia Abu-Jamal" and "Give Us Free!")

These self-described "psychiatrists for the C.I.A." may be disappointed that no crimes were committed by me and/or that they found no evidence of criminality at any time in my life. This is probably because I am not a criminal. Despite all of their efforts, they have not and will never make me a criminal. ("Freedom for Mumia Abu-Jamal" and "New Jersey's 'Ethical' Legal System.")

I renew my request for all torture files pertaining to me compiled in any way, shape, or form, by anyone in New Jersey or elsewhere including Tuchin and Riccioli's reports and the basis (if any) for them. This seems to be a difficult concept for New Jersey to grasp: I am what is traditionally called "a crime victim" as opposed to the "criminal."

You cannot diagnose away or dismiss a crime victim's appropriate anger at injustice or evil, nor his continuing demand for justice, when there is so much objective evidence to suggest wrongdoing by N.J. and its agents. Denial is minimally effective, for instance, when there are witnesses to these daily censorship efforts:

I have kept letters received from Publish America, DRB, Internet security records showing intrusions into my computer, phone records, and more establishing an organized campaign of vilification aimed at harming me, "permanently and severely" in the words of the law. You do not have plausible denial, Mr. Rabner. ("An Open Letter to My Torturers in New Jersey, Terry Tuchin and Diana Lisa Riccioli.")

Either the U.S. Constitution is the law of the land or there is only a pretense that we comply with due process guarantees and the right to freedom of speech found in that document and U.S. Supreme Court cases. Loss or public violations of my rights with the cooperation of government is the potential loss and/or violation of everyone's rights.

Will to power expressed in computer crime; harassments; threats of any kind; suppressions of speech will not compel my acceptance of what must remain hateful and unacceptable to any person retaining human dignity, whether in the U.S. or anywhere, including Cuba -- the violation of human dignity, torture and enslavement. ("Terry Tuchin, Diana Lisa Riccioli, and New Jersey's Agency of Torture" and "What is it like to be tortured?" then "More Censorship and Cybercrime.")

It is time to bring this nightmare to an end, Mr. Christie, by doing what law and decency requires in this deplorable situation of state criminality. Face me, Mr. Rabner, and tell me the truth concerning these crimes by revealing the facts kept from me for too long. Even in "induced" agony, I continue to assert my freedom:

"A living man can be enslaved and reduced to the historical condition of an object. But if he dies in refusing to be enslaved, he reaffirms the existence of another kind of human nature which refuses to be classified as an object. That is why the accused is never produced and killed before the eyes of the world unless" -- as I never will! -- "he consents to say that his death is just and unless he conforms to the Empire of objects." ("America's Holocaust" and "Freedom for Mumia Abu-Jamal.")

I am not a "thing." I am not an "object" for conditioning. I am not a slave. I am not a thing to be raped and stolen from, or slandered from behind my back. Mumia Abu-Jamal is not a slave. I offer no legitimation of the tactics used against me and, probably, also against so many others in America's concentration camps:

" ... only a brute in a state of irrational fury can imagine that men should be sadistically tortured in order to obtain their consent. Such an act only accomplishes the subjugation of one man by another, in an outrageous relationship between persons. The representative of rational totality is content, on the contrary, to allow the object to subdue the person in the soul of man. The highest mind is first of all reduced to the level of the lowest by the police technique of joint accusation. Then five, ten, twenty nights [21 years!] of insomnia will culminate [in] an illusory conviction and will bring yet another dead soul into the world. From this point of view, the only psychological revolution known to our times since Freud's has been brought about by the NKVD and the political police in general. [Behaviorist tortures.] Guided by a determinist hypothesis that calculates the weak points and the degree of elasticity of the soul, these new techniques have once again thrust aside one of man's limits and have attempted to demonstrate that no individual psychology is original and that the common measure of all human character is matter. They have literally created the physics of the soul."

Albert Camus, The Rebel: An Essay on Man in Revolt (New York: Vintage, 1991), pp. 238-239. ("Behaviorism is Evil" and "Terry Tuchin, Diana Lisa Riccioli, and New Jersey's Agency of Torture.")