New Jersey's Child Abuse Epidemic.

April 11, 2011 at 4:12 P.M. I received a second call from "Marcel" at Time/Warner concerning my cable bill from 718-670-0200. I happen to have called the cable company on April 5, 2011 at 12:35 P.M. and arranged to pay in full my one month's bill three days late. I spoke to "Kevin" at 1-866-899-7737. This seems to present no problems. I wonder why I receive these mysterious calls so often? I can only hope that the next person to call from Conn Ed or Time/Warner will be called "Placido Domingo." How's "Alina Falcone"? Or "Howard Masia"? Who comes up with these names?Bob Menendez?

Threatening to cut off my service -- or actually doing so -- would also have the effect of denying me access to the Internet. I will try to use public computers in the event that a "mistake" results in obstruction of my cable service. Incidentally, I informed "Marcel" (as in "Marcel Proust") that I had made this phone call on the last occasion when we "chatted." I trust that this matter has now been resolved to the satisfaction of Mr. Menendez and Ms. Ros-Leghtinen, or any other "bosses" in need of a clarification of the matter. I really appreciate the thoughtfulness of persons walking behind me on my strolls in Manhattan polite enough to remain a discrete distance from me. I surmise that, at least some of these persons, are providing protection for which I am grateful.

April 6, 2011 at 3:09 P.M. I was unable to post additional paragraphs for this essay earlier today due to obstructions from New Jersey's hackers. I will attempt to post revisions from a public computer.

March 29, 2011 at 8:33 P.M. This painfully written exercise was altered as to spacing with total disregard for the human suffering discussed in the work. No serious creative writing can be done under such circumstances. I will make the necessary corrections. I cannot say how many more essays will need to be corrected. I will make corrections of each and every work posted at these blogs, as often as may be necessary. I will not be intimidated in expressing my opinions by anyone. Each alteration of my copyright-protected text or obstruction to my posting efforts is a renewal of twenty-one years of abuse and rape by New Jersey officials causing me aggravated emotional suffering. I am highly distressed. Tell your friends about this interesting situation.

March 23, 2011 at about 2:00 P.M. "Errors" inserted in this work were corrected.

March 15, 2011 at 3:20 P.M. One letter was removed from the text overnight. I have now corrected this inserted "error."

March 14, 2011 at 3:24 P.M. "Message From a Torture Chamber" was altered and has now been corrected. I expect attacks against this essay and others in the days ahead. ("How censorship works in America.")

Beth De Falco, "Sixth Suspect Takes Plea Deal After Child Sex Case Falls Apart," in The Record, March 12, 2011, at p. A-3.

"TRENTON -- Nearly a year after police said a 7-year-old girl was pimped out by her 15-year-old stepsister and gang-raped at a party, prosecutors admit they don't have the evidence to go to trial and have offered plea deals dropping all sex crimes against the six defendants."

Prosecutors are to be commended in this matter. They have worked hard to obtain the best outcome possible in accordance with justice and the Constitution. This is an instance of state prosecutors in New Jersey acting heroically in what must be the most tarnished state criminal justice system in America. ("Law and Ethics in the Soprano State" and "New Jersey's 'Ethical' Legal System.")

This case is illustrative of many issues in America's culture of sexual criminality, but also it is indicative of what happens to a people after slavery and the legacy of slavery. The demeaning of human beings results in their own dehumanization. In fact, it may be the goal of racism to instill a kind of internalized "lesser identity" in persons from the victimized group. This internalized or diminished identity is particularly common or likely in African-Americans and all women in our society. ("America's Holocaust" and "Abuse and Exploitation of Women in New Jersey" then "Not One More Victim" and "Is Western Philosophy Racist?")

" ... The case wraps up nearly a year after Trenton police anounced that they had arrested the teenage girl, who they say brought her younger sibling to a party in a vacant apartment in one of the city's most troubled public housing complexes."

"Police said the teen gave the younger girl cash to let men touch her, watching as it escalated to rape."

The absence of DNA evidence, the unwillingness or inability of the 7-year-old to identify the culprits, possibly through intimidation, left prosecutors with few options in this matter. Requiring the child to testify may become a repetition of the rape. Each "error" inserted in these writings is a renewal of twenty-one years of torture and a further desecration of America's Bill of Rights by New Jersey officials. Reading this essay and others tampered with by legal officials from New Jersey will allow you to see American judges and lawyers defecating on the flag with each "error" inserted in my texts.

Rape is so traumatic an event in any person's life -- especially when it is repeated over numerous occasions and places -- that some forms of expression will be required if the individual is to survive the trauma. Denials of opportunities to write or damaging of these texts is an attempt to destroy coping mechanisms in order to induce depression or suicidal ideation to say nothing of providing ass cover for culprits. I will continue to write. I regret the inability to use images at these blogs and denials of access to my own group at MSN. Suppression of my second book by Lulu is unconstitutional. ("How Censorship Works in America" and "Censorship and Cruelty in New Jersey.")

Trauma on such a scale is usually repressed by a mind unable to fathom the full reality of such violation, until understanding is achieved, in order to come to terms with the full effects and meanings of such violation. ("Terry Tuchin, Diana Lisa Riccioli, and New Jersey's Agency of Torture" and "What is it like to be tortured?" then see the film "Mystic River.")

New Jersey's child molestation problem may be the worst in the country. A protected industry devoted to exploiting children, sexually and in other ways, thrives in Atlantic City and throughout the state, notably in places like Union City and North Bergen, also Elizabeth. Many participants in this industry in New Jersey are Cuban-Americans in the so-called "Cuban Mafia" which has nothing to do with Italian-Americans. The traditional Italian mafia is "better" than these people in every sense of the word. There seems to be a lesbian component of this problem or "industry." ("Trenton's Nasty Lesbian Love-Fest!" and "Jennifer Velez is a 'Dyke Magnet!'")

The injury done to a child damaged in such ways is lifelong and tends to be expressed both in pathological behavior (self-destructiveness is the essence of pathology, i.e., drug use, mindless, anonymous consumption, gambling, socially destructive behavior) or in insatiable and deviant sexuality. I know a person who has suffered in such ways. All pathologies usually lead to the attempted destruction of others as well as the sociopathic individual. Mindless sexuality can be about reenacting rape. I suggest to therapists that they read Kierkegaard's Repetition.

The mind cannot avoid returning to events and persons crucial to its survival and self-understanding -- events examined from multiple angles, with differing emotional colorings, purified of dross, under the scrutiny of reason, tested and weighed, where images recollected are superimposed upon one another. Leonardo sought to paint this capacity for perception in his depiction of Mona Lisa and himself. Shakespeare's Sonnets portray the lover's loving of his mistress loving his friend loving him loving them as the reader is also loved/loving: " ... life as it flows is so much time wasted," Santayana writes, "nothing can ever be recovered or truly possessed save under the form of eternity which is also ... the form of art." ("'Inception': A Movie Review" and "Arthur Schopenhauer's Metaphysics of Art.")

Date-rape drugs combined with hypnosis become powerful tools for those recruiting young women, especially, but also boys for abuse and sexual slavery. In Hudson County, New Jersey many establishments -- sometimes with the cooperation of bribed local officials -- "import" girls (some 14 years-old or younger!) to dance in local bars or "work" in the escort industry. I doubt that Cubans desire such social evils to be imported into their society. ("We don't know from nothing" and "Is Union City, New Jersey Meyer Lansky's Whore House?" then "New Jersey's Legal System is a Whore House" and "New Jersey's Feces-Covered Supreme Court.")

For some sick people, actual control of others -- especially the most vulnerable members of society -- is the ultimate sexual delight. Sadistic pleasure in absolute cruelty (particularly when victims are very young women far from home) motivates many molesters and torturers, also censors and "error" inserters at these blogs. Most of these monsters are men, quite a few are Latino and other minority men. ("Does Senator Menendez Have Mafia Friends?" and "Is Senator Menendez a Suspect in Mafia-Political Murder in New Jersey?")

We cannot deny this reality or allow political correctness to prevent us from saying that this cruelty is unacceptable anywhere in America -- including Miami, Florida and Union City, New Jersey. ("Terry Tuchin, Diana Lisa Riccioli, and New Jersey's Agency of Torture" and "What is it like to be tortured?" soon "What is it like to be raped?") Joseph Goldstein & Colin Moynihan, "Unseen Woman's Cries, Then Fatal Stabbing," in The New York Times, April 11, 2011, at p. A21. (Sarah Coit was fatally stabbed by a "boyfriend" named Raul Barrera who should never see the streets again.) ("Would You Have Helped Katherine 'Kitty' Genovese?")

Due to the pervasiveness of organized crime in New Jersey, law enforcement is frequently helpless in efforts to cope with this despicable criminality. New Jersey's underground child-prostitution and -porn generates enormous sums of money which finances political campaigns and, probably, allows for the appointment of judges. (Again: "Does Senator Menendez Have Mafia Friends?" and "Deborah T. Poritz and Conduct Unbecoming to the Judiciary in New Jersey" soon "Debbie Poritz Likes the Ladies!")

Part of the hypocrisy we live with is the sanctimonious, holier-than-thou self-righteousness of politicians and judges complicit in this horror. John McGill? Primary culprits place the onus of their nefarious efforts on much younger people, for example, usually inexperienced young women. Talk of "ethics" from such hypocrites and liars is absurd. ("Is Senator Bob 'For' Human Rights?" then "Senator Bob, the Babe, and the Big Bucks.")

The will to power (Friedrich Nietzsche, Alfred Adler, Wilhelm Reich) and intense pleasure some sick individuals derive from invading and dominating the inner lives of others receives its ultimate expression in rape. The anal penetration of a man forced to perform sexual acts under hypnosis and/or in a drugged state is not only ultimate dehumanization, but the attempt to deprive that person of gender and identity, emasculate and sexually objectify as "exploitable" a person made into something worse than a slave, i.e., a "thing." One does not have to be Sigmund Freud to realize that the person capable of such a crime, anal rape, is externalizing trauma and pain that is usually associated with her own violation. There are instances of victims being made to eat feces, slapped, beaten, punched or urinated upon as part of the process of violation. ("What is it like to be tortured?")

Rape is a crime about power. Lust for power is expressed in sexual terms and behaviors. Censorship is also about the sexual desire for power. Other ways of expressing that lust for power include social isolation, starvation or constant insults, closing off opportunities for absorption of ideas or beauty that may help victims to cope with trauma and stress are also "entertaining" to Jeffrey Dahmer-like exploiters. Theft of another person's creative or intellectual work is on a similar level of exploitation. ("What is it like to be plagiarized?" then "'Brideshead Revisited': A Movie Review" and "Albert Florence and New Jersey'sRacism" then "How censorship works in America.")

Using others, taking their bodies -- ideally, without their acceptance or desire, even when the rapist is repulsive to the victim -- maybe "sharing bodies" with rapists' friends is "fun" because the moral reality and meaning or dignity of another autonomous person is non-existent to rapists and exploiters. Privacy will never be afforded to rape victims by their exploiters nor to those demeaned in the effort to make them into sexual slaves. It is mostly young women whose psyches are broken in such ways who become America's prostitutes.

Rape makes any victim -- including a man -- a woman, female, feminine and, thus, worthless (like members of despised racial groups) in the estimation of rapists and maybe for the general culture. ("Foucault, Rose, Davis and the Meanings of Prison" and "Freedom for Mumia Abu-Jamal.")

The sexual object is like a bag of potato chips "shared" with friends invited to a party. "Life ain't nothing but a party!" This abuse condemns victims to unhealthy and self-destructive patterns of behavior that are sometimes lethal or life-long. Worse, the evil of sexual exploitation is disseminated further throughout society. The spectacle of sexual exploitation becomes attractive to all kinds of people as a form of theater or game. That game is visible to persons reading these blogs as they witness the protected computer crimes directed against me and all efforts to destroy or suppress these texts. There is no such thing as a twenty-one year mistake, New Jersey. (Again: "Deborah T. Poritz and Conduct Unbecoming to the Judiciary in New Jersey" and "New Jersey's Office of Attorney Ethics" then "New Jersey Prosecutors and the Mafia.")

I have never paid for sex. I have never struck a woman in my life. I have never been charged with or convicted of a crime, anywhere. I could never force my attentions on any woman, but there are men who attend parties at which women are paraded in skimpy outfits or totally nude, like pastries, for the delectation of "guests." Such men see themselves as "real men," while guys like me (who have refused to attend such parties) are "wimps" or nerds. I am not overly troubled by those insults nor by the ethical opinions of such persons. Appearances may deceive those who are dismissive of forms of strength that are not always visible or brash. Have I surprised you, Senator? ("Senator Bob, the Babe, and the Big Bucks.")

Women's courage is "for the other" and endures beyond the chest thumping of the moment. An example of what I mean by women's courage is child birth. The birth of a child is an occasion which should be experienced by men. I will never forget seeing the birth of my child and the tears I shared with her mother that day. I regret that, in my adult lifetime, this was the only occasion on which I shed tears. We live in a world that offers daily cause for the shedding of many tears.

Dehumanization is the essence of the experience for the victim of rape. Victims must articulate their pain in order to avoid projecting that pain on to others while transforming the hurt inside into love and creative effort, humor and shared moral struggle. This is how we dry one another's tears, comforting one another after tragedies occur in our lives. ("Dehumanization" and see "Buena Vista Social Club.")

We cannot cover-up or deny such evil. Shame does not belong to victims. Shame is exclusive to victimizers in rape cases. However painful or "laughable" such horrors may appear to others, we must examine them and discuss -- rationally and calmly, scientifically and aesthetically as well as spiritually -- what we feel (if necessary, publicly) for the sake of others who may be spared this intense pain. This is even more necessary when victims are men. Those who are inclined to chuckle with merriment at these thoughts are more than welcome to do so. ("How censorship works in America.")

It is not unusual for victims of severe sexual violation to shake, physically, with the recollection of crucial events in one's life that may be incomprehensible to others unaware of such realities. Memory becomes a minefield. Child abuse and rape must always be punished, even in New Jersey, to the fullest extent of the law. ("An Open Letter to My Torturers in New Jersey, Terry Tuchin and Diana Lisa Riccioli" and "Psychological Torture in the American Legal System.")

If loss of sleep occurs during the recovery of painful memories of violation, for example, do not force the issue, but allow sleep to arrive gently and soothingly. It is very likely that there will be much more than any single incident disclosed through "affective association" of resurgent memories over the course of months. There will be great effort involved in recollections and pain associated with different parts of the body. Sometimes the pain may come before the memory that gives rise to it; at other times, memory will arrive, disjunctively, with the pains associated with the experience of violation "anouncing" the memory. (See my forthcoming essay,"What is Memory?" and "'Total Recall': A Movie Review.")

A person undergoing the recovery of a string of memories will lose the sense of time and may go without eating for several days. It is important for persons to help such an individual to eat and rest properly.

Like Proust's tea-soaked "Madeleines," the pain of the body becomes the door to memory -- a door which must be forced open, sometimes, in order for all repressed recollections to emerge into the light of day. Memory is always present tense -- pain is felt now, always now. (I can never tell what alterations or violations of my writings have taken place, but if they still exist, see: "'The English Patient': A Movie Review" and "'The Constant Gardener': A Movie Review.")

The only way that I can suggest to people that they seek to recover memories is to move towards the painful locus of memory, usually an event or person, and try to trace out all associations with that person or occurrence. If you come to what appears to be a brick wall, try to break down that wall.

Marcel Proust's Remembrance of Things Past is a multi-volume novel devoted to the literary examination of memory in the construction of identity, both individual and social identity. "Madeleines" are sweet cookies eaten with tea that allow the narrator, Marcel, to open the doorway to memory in reconstructing a vanished pre-World War One world and absent youthful lovers.

Proust writes a phenomenological exercise (he studied philosophy with Henri Bergson) that interweaves concepts of time with "recollection" in new patterns reflecting the discoveries of physicists early in the twentieth century. George Santayana, "Proust on Essences," in Irving Singer, ed., Essays in Literary Criticism (New York: Charles Scribner & Sons., 1956), pp. 241-246. (See my quote from Santayana above.)

One of the great moments in my life was standing outside the room in Paris where Proust wrote his great novel "for" Odette-Albertine, gender-bending before this was fashionable. ("Master and Commander" and "A Doll's Aria.")

Richard Strauss wrote his Opera, Capriccio -- partly, I believe -- under the spell of Proust. The Countess Madeleine's (Rene Fleming recently sang the role beautifully at the MET) wistful and longing tribute to loss, time's passage, torn between poetry (male) and music (female) is lush and highly erotic. The mirror in the final aria is her other self. The subtext is difficult to miss and may be found in Thomas Mann's Death in Venice. George D. Painter, Marcel Proust, 2 Volumes (New York: Vintage, 1959). Please see chapter one in C.K. Scott Moncrieff's translation: "The Sweet Cheat Gone" in Remembrance of Things Past (New York: Vintage, 1970), pp. 3-102. ("Grief and Oblivion.") Finally, I direct the reader to Henry James' short story "The Altar of the Dead." The Turn of the Screw and Other Short Novels (New York: Signet, 1962), pp. 258-273.

If identity -- as Paul Ricoeur and others have suggested -- is a kind of narrative, then memory is thematic and associative in terms of "characters" and events in our life-plots. To remember or "feel" our lives is a creative action that is always undertaken now. The claim that "life doesn't have a plot" is typical of middle-brow responses to works of high art used in therapeutic endeavors. I suggest that this claim -- that life does not have a plot -- is only one more plot for people's lives and not a very attractive one. We cannot avoid thinking of our lives in ordered and temporal terms, as stories, and this inevitably involves arrangement and selection of form in terms of themes. "Let me tell you a story" is the unwritten first line of every life remembered. Someday I will find the place and opportunity to write my book in peace.

Don't let abusers get away with their crimes, Ms. Dow and Mr. Holder. The only way that continuing censorship of these potentially helpful and valuable texts makes sense is with the cooperation of N.J. government in violation of basic Constitutional principles. I am not foolish enough to believe that I have important things to say. I do not wish to be accused of "delusions of grandeur" nor of "pseudo-intellectual excesses." I have been told that I am "mentally retarded." Experience may allow me to offer some helpful suggestions to others undergoing these dangerous processes. Do not tamper with these writings. Do not prevent or obstruct me from writing my texts. ("John Searle and David Chalmers on Consciousness.")

You cannot cover-up these crimes, Mr. Tuchin. We will see each other again, soon.

Sources:

Chris Megerian & Seth Weingarten, "Foes Unite in Attack on Pension Loophole: At Least 4 'Retired' Lawmakers Still On the Job," in The Star Ledger, April 5, 2011, at p. 1. (Politicians and judges, probably, drawing a salary and pension for the same job in New Jersey. Are all of them alive? "New Jersey is the Home of the Living Dead." Ethics, Mr. Rabner?)

Ted Sherman, "U.S. Top Court to Hear Strip Search Case: N.J. Man Says Rights Were Violated Twice for Traffic Fine He Paid," in The Star Ledger, April 5, 2011, at p. 1. (African-American held fraudulently for over a week based on post-dated warrant issued by "mistake" for a traffic summons he had already paid.)

Karen Rouse, "Legal Fees Rising in Tunnel Fight: N.J.'s One Month Bill to Battle Feds: $300,000," in The Record, March 10, 2011, at p. A-1. (Does this include postage? I am sure the OAE rarely demands an accounting from connected law firms billing for "preparing" a case. How much of this fee is coming back under the table to politicians and Rabner?)

John Reitmeyer, "Hot Issues Raise Spending on Lobbyists 14%," in The Record, March 10, 2011, at A-1. (God forbid the taxpayers should cut down on lobbyists as opposed to cops and firefighters.)

"Time for Payback: Charter Official Got Salary and Pension," (Editorial) in The Record, March 10, 2011, at p. A-12. (Why not enjoy life?)

Monsy Alvarado, "Monitoring of Police to End: County Says Hackensack Has Improved," in The Record, March 10, 2011, at p. L-1. (An entire police department required monitoring, among other reasons because of allegations of racism and corruption in Zisa-land, Bergen County.)

"Senator to Block Nominee's Approval: Invoking Privilege on Education Chief," in The Record, March 11, 2011, at p. A-3. (How much does Mr. Rice want, Chris?)

Chris Megerian, "U.S. Largest Budget Deficit of $222 BILLION Ever for a Single Month," in The Record, March 11, 2011, at p. A-6. (Isn't this economic reality also a security issue, Mr. Obama? We have yet to meet the projected goal of generating 300,000 jobs per month.)

Justo Bautista, "Arrest Made in ID Probe: Man Charged in Sale of Documents," in The Record, March 11, 2011, at p. L-3. ("Here's your license, Mr. George Clooney.")

Andrea Alexander, "Wayne Library Cuts 6 Top Jobs: 'A Total Shock,' Says a 34-Year Staffer," in The Record, March 11, 2011, at p. L-3. (They saved the lobbyists' jobs.)

"Someone to Watch Over Them," (Editorial) in The Star Ledger, March 11, 2011, p. 15. (Cops to watch cops?)

Matt Friedman, "State Sheds 13,000 Jobs in January," in The Star Ledger, March 11, 2011, at p. 19. (In addition to economic factors corruption makes N.J. increasingly less attractive to legitimate business as opposed to the child prostitution industry.)

John Reitmeyer, "Prospects -- Taxes Rise on Average 4% Typical North Jersey Bill Ballooned to Record $9,258 in 2010," in The Record, March 11, 2011, at p. A-3. (More taxes for the unemployed residents of New Jersey.)